Repetitive to Mesmerising

It’s strange how some things or people of whom you do not have a very good initial impression end up being one of your favourites simply by the phenomena of repitition. It might have happened with most of us at some point of our lives. Be it the bicycle as a kid that you didn't like but because everyone was buying it, even you got yourself one; or as a teenager, the slim girl next door whom you considered as just another girl, but ended up developing a huge crush on her just because all your mates would melt at the very sight of her, passed a good chunk of their day discussing her; or probably, the computer game which you were not very amused with in your first trial game but somehow got addicted to it later, thanks to the discussions of the game making the rounds. This is the kind of infuence some people or a group of people have on us. And most of the time it happens unknowingly. I prefer to call this phenomena the transition from repetitive to mesmerising.

Recently I was influnced by this phenomena yet again. I, along with few other colleagues sit in one of the conference rooms in our office, five of us packed in a single conference room. This was supposed to be a temporary seating location for us, due to infrastructure limitations, but we have ended up sitting there for more than two months now. It's a different stroy that none of us want to move out of it anymore into isolated cucbicles. If that happens we have to trade our freedom with privacy. Another significant reason being, we do not want to deprieve ourselves the pleasure of listening to loud (well, higher than normal volume) music sans the headphones. We have an "inmate" whom we fondly call DJN, who makes sure we stay entertained all the while at work. DJN initially used to toggle tracks from the myriad of collection that he had.

Then it happened one day- music of Karthik Calling Karthik was released. All the songs from the movie was tried in the labs of DJN, and the only one that passed all tests was the track- "Uff teri Ada". And we had DJN playing this track day in and day out. How I hated it. Every single time when the singer repeated the word “uff” with equal exuberance, I would end up hating it more. One fine day, DJN did not play the song. I thought he finally obliged to my resistance, but no he’s a tough nut to crack. My misconception was cleared when the guy sitting right across him educated me, “He didn’t give up dude. He told me this morning that he is sick and tired of listening to the same track everyday, to the extent that it has started seeming to him like a “bhajan” in the temples. So, he is kind of taking a break.” For me it was a metamorphosis of feelings from elation to petrified.
Me: ”Mate, don’ t tell me he’s gonna resume it again in few days!”
Friend: “I bet he will :-) “ How I hate that smile.

A couple of days went by, DJN played almost every track from his collection, but “uff....”. I started feeling a lull in the music scene of the conf room. Then this fact trickled into yours truly’s head that the song had now become an opium to me. This could be possible only because DJN repeated it to an extent that probably I started associating the song with the entertainment portion of my working time contrary to the monotonous coding that we developers do perennially. These days if you happen to pass by the Conference Room, chances are pretty high that you would get to hear a faint version of “uff teri ada” with the only difference that this time it would not be DJN playing it.

Move Over.. It’s My Turn Now!!!

I saw it coming

When you least expected

With sentiments pumping

Wishing this time it’s not eluded

No compromises anymore

No thinking if it hurts them

I am no more the college sophomore

With maturity not as few..ahem!

Tell me once that i can’t do it

And see to what extent I burn myself

It’s time I make the call for it

Be it known to achieve it I won’t cheat thyself

 

The calling of the heart believes it exists

 It’s time for the Phoenix to rise from the ashes and how

To make sure after I am gone I still persist

Success here I come to attain thee... Move over it’s my turn now.

I give up when...

I saw you standing there... pale, numb, disheveled. I hate to see you like that. But when u spread your arms, craving to be hugged, I give up. I give up when you tell me that you want me forever. I give up when the warmth of your sighs fortifies the air around my face. I give up... when u kiss me. That twinkle in your eyes convey to me all that you feel. The tiny fingers, when they grasp my shoulders tightly, remind me that you are my angel, ever so vulnerable. The radiance of your smile never fail to enchant me. I want this moment to be frozen in time, live it the same way as in dream; fearing when I wake up, it’ll be all gone. My baby I won’t give up even if you are gone!